i am getting fatter,
insecurities manzx,
all the skinny peeple out that,be happy!
Reaaaaaaaally.

okay,
first week in school got 4 assignments alr.
hence so busy la,buzz buzz.
then i dunknow whats wrong with me also,
it feels as though i tape my mouth before i go to school
silence from me. ...
,maybe cause im afraid peeple will judge,and i am freaking self conscious i cannot stand myself.



after school,its either sean or danny
danny or sean.
&yes,ytd theresa let me carry her,after so many tries,
i almost gave up.Cuteeeeeeeeness.
well,you saw my zac efron's fantasy face?

finally,the weekends.
embrace it.i love having you ard.
god is good.
:) first day of school
oh,joy.
ha,it was really long and draggy.
(yum decadent choc chip)
but thankfully,i survived,
i was extremely quiet today for no reason at all.
that sucks.
it felt as though my heart and mind went for a retreat.
ohwell.

weekends were great!
easter fiesta in nyp,then 17 again,dinner and then cut my hair!
im now bad girl gone good.
sunday,sent my cuz to the airport,
took an hour bus ride bk to wdlds,
went to watch the match.
vinod got injured,i was abit traumatize and in shock
idiots really.
&slept quite early.

i miss you
cant wait to see you on friday bitch! i feel super lousy now,
after all the fun in the sun has died down,
'semester briefing' started filling in my head.
i felt so guilty not going, because i want to know whats going on,
i dun wanna be one blur cock first day of year 2,
i dun wanna trouble my friends
(attendance compulsory but smtimes bullshit ah)
i need to put more effort you know,in everything related to school.
damn la.
i've put sooooooo much effort end up get shit grades also.
very discouraging yknow, like seriously,
at least give credit for effort la,not only the concept and such,
knn, thinking of my grades just pisses me off,im angry at myself for not
performing as well as my classmates,
Yes,i am damn superly overly competitive,but i try not to show it.
see through me alr? ha,not funny.
and today,where did i freaking go?
bitchy beach sentosa getting all so excited to get deliciously dark.
dammit,priorities man,i tell myself,
in the end i still chose goodfriends(and the sun).
and no,i didnt regret it one bit cause i had one splendid day out.
Its just that, when i think of school,i think of grades, and then i'll feel like
..shit.
i seriously die die wanna buck up,
please lecturers,i want to be your pet.
Omg,what a slut,NO i am just kidding.

i wonder what year2 brings,
please bring me good grades,
i promise you i'll work doubly hard.
Get'cha head in the gameeeeeee la dey!
Focus hocus pocus!
Rrrrrr,

im sorry laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,im like that.
you dont go 'eeee joscelyn's like that.'
'Walau,go look at her blog she this she that',
whatever manzxzx,gives the hand sign,
and then slaps yr mangkok head.
ok bye,i go play guess the sketch now.
:-) why so angsty
i couldnt care less.
its time for change. rarr rarr rarr,mum having b.f again,
meno ...pause...
haha.shit,im mean.

ok,short one. holyweek is over
been going to church everyday from thurs to sat.
oh,thursday,cage soccer madness. then after lunch,
hadi,haris ,syam,marcus and me went to vivo lepakkkkk then go home.
then for mass.

friday,solemn day i didnt touch the com nor watch teevee.
stayed in church till like 8/9pm,
then took the car,to jeremy's home.
then to marina barrage and then to makansutra eat stingray shiok,
then drop bernard home,woah bernard's home,is the bomb! i love it!
reach home at 3plus.
haha,mother didnt contact us,we were happy little monsters.

i.am.a.shopaholic.
i bought 4 shirts,2shorts,1scrub,8pens,2 notepads
over a period of 2 days(sat/sun).

one more week,live to the fullest!
woohoooooo,

Happy Easter Guys!

takecare joel! *H* Hellooooo ,its been too long!
im afraid i might forget,so im finally back to write about my past two weeks!
Rarrrrr,
dont read,its really naggy!
and non of your business.
but if you want it to be your business,
it will be!
Ha,

okay! last week was boring,
i worked my arse off from wed-fri,
told a little lie on tuesday,so that i could be excused from work.
sin,sighhh.
monday, went to raffles' tcc for some school related thingy and then caught paul blart mall cop
with anthony. joy.
why am i going backwards,okay.
so last week was last-week-of-work-week.haha.
im finally freeeeeeeee!
all those painful mornings having to wake up,
meeting the annoying uncle,
seeing the alligators face,
the bossing ard moments,
NO MORE MAN,NO MORE!
Haha,

and then came saturday,
my burpday party!
im 18 man,
it was so rush,but it was awesome!
the bomb diggity!
i felt so blessed that very night.
thank you one and all for making time to attend my party!
i really hope you guys enjoyed yourselves!
and thankyou for the Presents!
(even though your presence meant more than them!)
Hahahahhaa,fakerzxzxzx.
but thankyou anyways!
:) :) :)

charm, your cupcake's are super pretty and yummy!
im gonna finish it soon!

g,thank you for the canon kamerazxzxzx
even though you're so dry yourself! i heart you worzxzx!

joe,dora,josh!
thankyou for the colourful macarons!!

ken,ben faith,
i really really loveeeeeeeeeeeee the belt! ty ty ty!

sand and angela! thank you for the bag full of goodies!
i love the bangles clang clang!

sean,maria
thank you for the,erhem... skirt!
hahha,i'll wear it someday/soon!

bacon,joel
thankyou for the diy shirt!
i...love it! Hahaha

atikah,reg,zac,ash.
thank you for the
'PULL AND BEAR' SHIRT!
it is awesome!
plsplspls dare me to wear it to sch someday,and i will!
it takes courage yknow,haha. THANKYOU FOR COMING!!!

aaron,gloria,victor.
thank you for my morgan,
the smell rocks,i love ittttttt !

justina,lari
thank you for the bottle of vodka!
we will share it when we have the chance!
:)

angelyn,sherman,
thank you for the green bottle!
i love itttttt too!

seems as though i like many things,i do actually.

bernard,
thanks for playing me a song via mp3 haha
really sweet!

nana and danker for the chocs! thankyou!

dot for the notepad with the letter j on it!!! i will use it!

my cousins for the card and taka vouchers!
the uncles for angpaos! and taka vouchers!


oh

jared,mike,the joosas.
thankyou for sharing with me my first can of beer!
and for the teddy bear which the kids are dying to name it!
i love the teddy!

Lastly,
to jeremy,des and danny.
ty ty ty ty for the polka dot bag,im dying to have.
thankyou g for even telling them in the first place,ha!
and for the nonsense card!

thank you joel and sean for the lovely cards,i love reading them! :)


thankyou everyone for your wishes both from text and facebook!
i am super grateful,really!

sunday,i bought g perfume,because he was tooo smelly, no la joke.
haha, and we watched confessions/shopaholic. nice leh.

monday6 april,i went over to the loon's and played BORED games there,
hahah.get it get it board games bored games!? haha,and then to recon.
and then to al-ameen to gorge myself,i was really hungry,guilty. haha.

tuesday,what did i do.oh i rot at home and cooked rosti and wings for dinner for the 3 of us.
rosti looked like shit, like the brownish angkukueh colour,yucks. guilty again,i stuffed myself.

today,i went over to g's crib again,watch the unborn,and slept? then to amk's ny ny for dinner with
jeremy,kong,bacon and raymond.
raymond ord tmr,super happy ah!
hahha. the rest,long more way to go,too bad!

so tmr im gonna go play cage with sec sch friends,
and most prolly sentosa with poly friends,
shit imagine the stuff i havta bring!
plus maundy thursday mass tooo,
oops.

and i let jesus down,im sorry.
for im going away on good friday.
go kelong fishing.maybe even stay there for good,
my dad lost his job.
we're financially in deep shit.
maybe i have to sell away my apple too,
and all the birthday presents,
and pawn my camera,
sell my clother in the flea market,
quit poly,
oh dear.


































Hahhaahahaa, i am kidding,
but i can only kid till a certain extent.
go figure out! :) / :( .





byebye,i will be back! GRINS.